answer

One day at a time. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." I tend to forget this very often. The Lord was so good. I was so overwhelmed and couldn't understand. But then I heard His voice- Be still. Rest in who I am. and then everything seemed not so scary. Just REST IN ME.

the head

so my head hasn't been so great these past few weeks. i think i just have good spells and bad spells. I start school in two months. well not just me everyone at auburn. but i'm very nervous about it. i keep thinking about it and get really freaked out. i know it is not of the Lord, but its just the evil one trying to keep me stuck in a place of fear. if you have any encouraging words, please share. i would love to hear them. i hope everyone is having a great summer. it's been so beautiful here in the gump!! miss you all and much love.
-cg-

unwritten

ok. i love this song. i can't get it out of my head. it's so great. i love the lyrics. it makes me feel like i can change the world. i'm serious. the sky is the limit. let me share, see how it makes you feel:

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

I break tradition, sometimes my tries are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

that's all for now. peace out people. much love.

change for the blogging world, again.

Ok, so if you have not read my post "how to deal" this won't make any sense, so go read that first then come back here. ok good so here is the deal. i'm really learning about boundaries and so obviously i thought just not putting anything up here was good. well i think i was right to an extent, but then i went up to encounter and i had a couple of people say - how are you doing, we are praying for you and trying to keep up with your blog. so whats going on in my heart, will stay in my heart, but whats going on with my head i will continue to share so that all of you can know and will and continue to pray for me.

I have been so blessed to be put into a community that is so consistent in prayer for others. It's funny because I really haven't spent that much time in Auburn (6 months freshman yr and 2 months last year), but all of you I admire and just feel so loved that so many people care. I can't wait to actually get back up there. Tenative plan- i'm gonna be back in the fall. only 3 classes so hopefully i can do well. the hard part is going to be taking care of my head. Please pray that the Lord will give me discernment as to yes go and do this or no, you can't do that, you have to rest.

Last night at encounter my head was KILLING me. If you ever notice my face just turns bright red when its really bad. But anyways, i was seeing everyone and i felt horrible and my response was- i'm not that great.

BUT- here is the cool thing. I have been doing so much better. the month of may was really good. my head is always still hurting but i can do a few things and distract myself. I'm in the process of learning when i can push and when i need to stay home and rest. I saw my doctor again this past week. He took me down on one of the dosages of my meds and he gave me a new muscle relaxer. Before i took baclofen and i would take it 3 times a day, and used it like a prevenative. Well after a while meds seem to, well you seem to build a bit of tolerance. So anyway- he switched me to zanaflex. and it knocks me out. i mean out. so i'm hoping i can build up a tolerance against the sleepiness because the med itself seems to be working.

The past week has been bumpy, the month before that, good. Please keep me in your prayers. Pray that he will continue to heal me, continue to show me areas that are keeping me from that, and for courage and perserverance. I know there is reason in all of it. I can't wait to see if i do get to find out eventually. Thank you so much "checking in" and thank you again for your prayers. much love.

-christy g

thoughts...

My fingers are itching as i read everyone else's blog. I miss auburn (yay- thats a good thing, for a while i didn't want to come back). but really i just want to praise the Father. He has been so good. Christ brings us LIFE!! and not just life, but a full and abundant life. i feel so much older than i really am. that probably sounds a little off. but this gift of time has just been so interesting. i love learning about myself. i love learning what He has made me passionate about. i love that He has brought things to light of my flesh and that i can work at it and peel it away. i love the story in Chronicles of Narnia when eustice becomes a dragon and then how Aslan pulls him out. If you don't know what I am talking about find the story (Voyage of the Dawn Treader). so many good parallels. I'm babbling, but i tend to do that. i guess that is part of what makes methe one and only christy g :)